everybody’s changing

  By Quasar | January 28, 2012 - 1:02 am | Life, Music
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For the first time in a while, I feel like I’m in control of my own life. Actually, maybe not for the first time in a while; maybe for the first time ever. I guess the very real issue of year 12 looming overhead really gets you thinking, huh?

Uninstalled LoL and have vowed to stay the hell away from gaming for at least the rest of this year, hopefully forever. Games are fucking evil, anyway. Especially online multiplayer ones. Had already quit for 2 years prior to getting caught up in it again, last May. I suppose I felt pretty helpless at the time – was pretty ill, felt terrible everyday, issues going on at home as well as many other sources of disappointment drew me towards the temptations of the internet; and before I knew it, I was well and truly sucked in. Not my proudest moment(s).

I think I have a general idea of where I want my life to go, after the HSC and high school come to an end. I’ll give a fair shot at medicine at UNSW, despite my currently (extremely) gloomy chances – thanks to last year. More likely will be optometry/visionscience at UNSW, or UWS medicine. There’ll always be computer science UNSW to fall back on in the worst case scenario, which hopefully won’t happen.

Music will definitely be an important part of my life forever. I hope. Will pickup an electric guitar before uni starts, and sometime later on in life, I’ll definitely want to learn the piano (@ Rusians: BIT LATE?! haha!). If I somehow have time, drums are also a must. They just seem like so much fun to play!

I wonder if 10 years in the future, I’ll look back and realise that this was a turning point in my life. I hope I will! I think… whatever happens in life, I’ll be able to cope with it. Last year wasn’t great, but I suppose I’ve at least learnt quite a few valuable lessons on life from it, and discovered myself.

And now, I don’t particularly want Youtube videos littering my front page, so, two videos after the cut.

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tomorrow

  By Quasar | January 25, 2012 - 11:36 am | Life
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Life honestly needs a slow-motion button. Something that’ll let us have more time to experience and think about everything as we grow up; our teenage years especially.

“I spent most of my childhood wishing I were older. Now I’m older, and this shit sucks…”

I remember being in year 7 and clearly thinking to myself; ‘wow, these year 12s are so tall and grown up… they’re practically adults! it’ll be ages before I’ll get there…’ And now, in the blink of an eye, I’m here, and when I look back on my past years, there’re mostly things I… regret. Well, let’s hope I won’t be saying this again as I’m graduating from university.

You don’t start missing your childhood until you realise how old you are all of a sudden, and how unfamiliar with this world and society we really are. I miss having nothing much on my mind, being carefree, believing that adults were perfect and flawless and thinking that one day when we grow up, we’ll be so too. I miss thinking that “one day” was a faraway day.

As more and more time passes by, the more and more I realise that this big scary world is so intimidating and; well, joyless – comparitively to the safe haven we’d been living in for all of our younger years. It’s somewhat depressing realising that it’s definitely because adults are realists.

It surprises me to be saying that I can completely understand what typical asian parents mean when they tell us that dating at a young age isn’t a good idea, that we’re not ready. Come to think of it, I still don’t think I’m ready at this point in time. Uni had better be good, though!

My blog posts are always pretty depressing and angsty, aren’t they? Unfortunately I can’t really help that, and I’d still prefer writing about this crap than about pointless stuff that’s going on in my life. Plus, these posts will be great fodder for when I’m older and I need some nostalgia (or something to have a good laugh at! hopefully) to brighten up my old day!

For now? I think I’ll settle currently for aiming for being satisfied with my journey through life when I do leave this world – having no regrets.

new year’s resolutions: in detail

  By Quasar | January 8, 2012 - 11:39 pm | Life
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These are terribly overdue, but better late than never, I suppose.

I’ve got quite a few new year’s resolutions this time round, and I’ll do my best to actually fulfil these. (No, really!) Maybe some of these will seem somewhat unorthodox or weird to others, well whatever. Who reads this still, anyway? Haha.

A) Fulfil challenges that I’ve been wanting to do for a long time
1. Every day, go for a walk while working through that vocal series I downloaded 2 years ago
2. Complete and stick to that one Reddit challenge I’ve wanted to do for a long time
3. Write a song or two! Like, ACTUALLY FINISH THEM. Hm.

B) Work on personal health
4. Go out; exercise and play sport regularly, preferably every day
5. Fix up sleeping habits – lights out promptly at 11pm, getting up at 8am

C) Become a better person
6. Work on relationships with everyone, including people who may be hard to get along with, especially some K group people
7. Talk more with my mum, make her happier
8. Think about everything I say before I say it; be more considerate of others in everything I say and do
9. Become more confident in myself
10. Don’t take everything so personally

D) Become more motivated
11. Work hard this year with schoolwork, go back to attaining decent grades/marks, make it into a university course that I’m actually passionate about
[after HSC:]
12. Do some volunteer work somewhere, maybe a hospital, Westmead or Concord?
13. Gain weight, hit the gym and buff up
14. Organise a reunion with everyone in my year 5/6 class and catch up with them!

I’m sure there are a few other things which I wanted to do but can’t remember off the top of my head, so I’ll add them in later when they resurface.

I wonder when I look back on this on the 1st of January, 2013, how satisfied I’ll be with how many of these resolutions I’ve fulfilled, and to what extent.

we’re spiralling

  By Quasar | January 1, 2012 - 11:58 pm | Life, Music
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It’s 2012, and these are the last few minutes of the first day of the year.

A new year’s always good. In a way, we’re handed a clean slate, figuratively, and we get the feeling that we can take another shot at everything, all over again.

Last year was crap. Comparitively to 2010, it was awful. Illness, issues at home, issues at school… just about everything. It was somewhat like a blur – everything passed by quickly, and I just drifted through it all, demotivated, apathetic. I get the feeling that most of my friends felt it, but were just too scared of the awkwardness to talk to me about it. It’s ok, I was scared of it too and am glad that you guys didn’t.

I’m not going to dwell on it because dwelling on the past is never a fun thing to do. That, and the fact that I feel that my blog requires some more optimistic posts instead of the long, winding posts of deep and meaningful discussion over the same melancholy issues, really.

I’ve got a bunch of new year’s resolutions which all boil down to two main points, really;
i) become a better person
ii) become a more motivated person

While those two could be further merged, I guess I’ll keep them separated just to remind myself. Who knows, maybe these will finally be some new year’s resolutions that I manage to actually complete? No, wait. I know that I will. This year will be composed of a whole lot of change.

I’ve already discovered a great new song to start off this year. Definitely feels like it could be my anthem of the year. Full of vibrance and energy. Full of motivation. That’s what I feel. Here’s Keane’s “Spiralling”.

… The lead guitar riff is amazing.

yes, it’s finally here!

  By Quasar | December 9, 2011 - 9:06 am | Minecraft
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So after about 60 hours, the server FINALLY arrived.

Server IP: 64.186.149.187:25565

Just finished setting it up and testing. For me, it’s less laggy than it was on Leo’s, and for the rest of you (except Leo) I think you’ll feel that it’s slightly faster as well (or at the very least, it won’t be any laggier, and it’ll never have those lag spikes like Leo’s did, when he was installing/downloading stuff etc). So pay attention to that and give me feedback on it.

If you already had an account on Leo’s, it’s remained, you will still have to login with
/login PASSWORD

If you require a new account, please ping me on MSN
Note that when you login for the first time you should register your account with
/register PASSWORD

And whenever you login after that you’ll have to provide your password.

Yes it’s a new world, since most people agreed that they wouldn’t mind.

… Don’t think I’ve missed anything.

wherever you will go

  By Quasar | November 20, 2011 - 9:16 am | Life
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Mum’s about to go on her 4-month trip to Shanghai, we’re leaving in 15 minutes or so. Yeah, 4 months is quite a long time… and I get this feeling that I’m going to miss her a lot more than I’d previously thought. (Insert obligatory awwwww here) But no, really. Sometimes you don’t realise til the last minute…

Going to live at my dad’s for these 4 months. At least I’ll have more freedom when it comes to going out with friends and stuff, I guess. We’ll see how that goes.

It’ll be hell for this upcoming week though… gotta love exams and what they do to ya.

this has gotta be a good life

  By Quasar | October 28, 2011 - 7:24 pm | Life, Music
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There’s been quite a few blog posts which I started but couldn’t get around to finishing, so as a result it’s been many many months since I’ve last posted… this blog seems to be becoming quite redundant :/

So this post is just like some kind of placeholder, I guess. Not really much to say, except this year has flown by faster than any other year I could remember. And nothing much has even happened… heck, less stuff has happened than any other year, yet it’s gone the fastest. How does that work…?

Going by fast means that we’re enjoying it… right? Speaking of which, this has gotta be a Good Life! The original by OneRepublic is great, but this cover is even more amazing; check it out!